Thinking...

...well, I've been thinking all day about what to do..... and what may happen next.... and I don't have a clue.... but fact of the matter is: I am withdrawing - I cannot deny it. And I think it is self-protection... so let's see what happens on Tuesday... Though if I think that she's seeing him in just about an hour, probably even picking him up at the airport, and then they'll spend the night together... terrible! Somehow I feel that I need to "cheat" just in order to get some control back...